So....my writing journey has felt very futile lately. To the point where I've wondered if giving up wouldn't be the best plan. Not giving up on writing entirely--I wouldn't know what to do with myself if I didn't write!--but giving up on sharing my writing with others in any way.
Which I suppose is pretty pathetic all around, considering I only share it in very minimal ways: I post it as fan-fiction on AO3 or I post free text-based games on itch.io. Not like there's any pressure involved or any necessity to "do well." (And good thing for that, because what I write does not "do well" by any logical metric.) Though I do feel like by sharing it publicly then it's slightly less of a waste of my (admittedly worthless) time to write it in the first place.
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I had wanted to talk about a book on writing I read recently, but somehow I am unable to change the subject.
Maybe I need to do something else for a while and come back to this post later.
I've been something of a weird wreck the last few days.
Probably not going to make a lot of sense until I normalize again.
Sorry for yet another wasted post.
Your time writing is not wasted. For me, when I get stuck or feel discouraged, writing poetry helps me appreciate anew the beauty of life around me and the value of creativity in nurturing me. I hope you are able to write words that please you, and thank YOU for posting today. Just one example of a poem that changed my life:
ReplyDeleteThere's no such thing as a future,
whether good or bad;
there's only the past taunting me,
with things I've never had.
The poem goes on for 3 more stanzas and was written when I was 17. My aunt read it and invited me to come live with her to go to community college. That single act of generosity changed my life irrevocably. I hope September is a better month for you.
When I get into a slump, I read lots of fun novels until I want to write again. This year my book-reading count has been astronomical. But who's counting?
ReplyDeleteI didn't write for almost four years. Not much anyway. Then a story finally hit and it became my fifth published book. Don't give up - I'm sure it won't take you that long to recover. Go do something else fun and creative for a while.
ReplyDeleteSometimes we do other things and don't write. Don't worry about it. Your writing will come back when it's reay.
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