A to Z Reflection

 

    Hmm.

    What to even say?

    I mean, a lot of the individual posts were things I had fun with, though I'm not sure how well I fulfilled my intention on the theme I chose for myself.  I mean, yeah, I wrote 27 posts about characters I have written about, one for each letter of the alphabet, but it ended up being more of a parade of "I enjoy this quote so much" and less of an actual discussion of the character or any facet of writing for them.  In that regard, I think the F and R posts were probably the most successful, because I actually did address more points than just "I enjoy this passage about this character."

    The fact that it mostly just swapped back and forth between my Greek mythology-inspired novels and my Mo Dao Zu Shi fanfic was also not cool.  Unfortunately, I don't actually have that much else that fit the qualification of "available online or hopefully will be available online someday."  I guess if I'd tried harder--or been willing to accept smaller characters--I could have found characters from more diverse works to use.

    So, it's like...I finished the challenge but I also kind of feel like I failed somehow?

    More importantly, I was so fixated on it that I got very little else accomplished over the month of April, and was so exhausted by the process that I barely ended up visiting anyone else's blog--though I did at least visit a few!--so it sort of...defeated the purpose?  Even worse, I was getting stressed enough about it that I ended up triggering my heart palpitations, so that's excessively bad.

    Overall...

    Overall I think I can't even contemplate doing this again unless my heart condition ever becomes truly resolved, instead of merely "less intrusive," which is where it's been for the last...I dunno, six to eight months?  (Doesn't help that my doctor is no longer with the hospital (the reasons for her departure were not explained to me) and I have way too many social phobias to be able to easily call another one.  Plus all the tests indicated that there wasn't actually anything wrong with my heart, so it's like...wtf?)

    *sigh*

    This has not been much of a post.

    But I don't really feel like I have much else to say, either.

    (But that's why I won't be entering it into the Reflections bloghop.  No point in subjecting other people to the boredom...)